In 2002 , I lost my only son. My daughters were 7 and 5 years old at the time my sweet Alex was born. Three days before he would have been two months he died from SIDS. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. Although I feel that lose every day, I won’t not trade having that time with him for anything. I would suffer 2 life times to feel the joy of those two months. It is an emotional roller coaster sometimes I just want to hold every baby I see and other days seeing a baby brings me to my knees. Sometimes I want answers to it all other days I wanna end it all. My daughters kept me going over the years. I know I was so worried about every little thing they missed out on a lot of things other kids got to do. The fear of losing another child the hurt of not being about to save him, the missing piece that can never be replaced. My youngest daughter paid for us to get matching tattoos ( my only one). That is a copy of his actual footprint from the hospital. The reason I wrote this is because there is so many devices out there now to detect heart beat. Some are expensive but it is worth piece of mind. I got Angel detector for my first granddaughter. It had a mat she laid on and a video camera. My daughter is blessing me with another grandchild and looking at all the things they have out is so neat. So please anyone having a baby or babysitting invest in one of those products. I had took classes I had CPR certification but my emotions were so crazy I couldn’t think. Some people maybe about to save someone they love but I couldn’t think straight. My daughters say I trip out when it comes to my kids. But SIDS can happen at anytime without warning. Maybe this helps someone. Thanks for taking the time to read about my life. Bless you all!
In 2002 , I lost my only son. My daughters were 7 and 5 years old at the time my sweet Alex was born. Three days before he would have been two months he died from SIDS. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. Although I feel that lose every day, I won’t not trade having that time with him for anything. I would suffer 2 life times to feel the joy of those two months. It is an emotional roller coaster sometimes I just want to hold every baby I see and other days seeing a baby brings me to my knees. Sometimes I want answers to it all other days I wanna end it all. My daughters kept me going over the years. I know I was so worried about every little thing they missed out on a lot of things other kids got to do. The fear of losing another child the hurt of not being about to save him, the missing piece that can never be replaced. My youngest daughter paid for us to get matching tattoos ( my only one). That is a copy of his actual footprint from the hospital. The reason I wrote this is because there is so many devices out there now to detect heart beat. Some are expensive but it is worth piece of mind. I got Angel detector for my first granddaughter. It had a mat she laid on and a video camera. My daughter is blessing me with another grandchild and looking at all the things they have out is so neat. So please anyone having a baby or babysitting invest in one of those products. I had took classes I had CPR certification but my emotions were so crazy I couldn’t think. Some people maybe about to save someone they love but I couldn’t think straight. My daughters say I trip out when it comes to my kids. But SIDS can happen at anytime without warning. Maybe this helps someone. Thanks for taking the time to read about my life. Bless you all!
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